Changing my life

Dear readers,
Long time not blogged.
Was to busy and way to tired to write a blog.

In mean time lot happend.
Good thing first. Ronan Keating is going to tour. His new album fires is great. A bit pop, also a rap song. Only 3 ballads I love it!  check this out its acoustic version of waisted light. Ronan Keating waisted light recorded in Holland.
I´m very happy that I can go to London and see all my friends from Holland, UK and Germany.
Great catch up laughs, cocktails and enjoying London. Stuff like this makes life a bit easier. Holiday to look forward to. Miss Dublin very much. I really hope I can enjoy it next year, need it to keep myself balance the nature and the kind people.

 Last weeks no well months there was lots of realisation on my health.
I´m simpely to tired. Difficult to explain. Its not only I want sleep all the time but its more lie down. because my body cant move and is to tired but my eyes mind are clearly awake and dont want to sleep. Its what lots of kidney patients have. The tiredness doesnt make life easy. After work you lie down, in the weekend you relax a lot because you need the energy Monday at work again. Most healthy people dont realise how much energy stuff cost like walking, concentration, hang the washes, cleaning the house and do shopping. For me its almost like counthing calories. I know when I make an appointment for the Saterday (after 11 because I need enough sleep) to catch up with friends for lunch that the Sunday is a rest day for me. Means in general that I´m a lot at home. I´m lucky with friends and family that come to my home so I dont have to spend energy to traveling. Also they know my problem so always think about it when we go out.
So last months some stuff had to change. 2 times in month there comes a cleaner, the food for my pets and cats gravel get delivered at home so I dont have to carry anymore and got an electric bike. Sadly we figured out its all not enough I´m struggling. Doctors gave me again extra medication for bloodpressure that makes that I take 11 pills a day. Also blood wasnt good kreat is getting higher means kidney function is getting less. But kidney is works still enough.
Healthcare centre at work figured out I´m struggling a lot and said its better for my health to stop working full time before I breakdown. So we are busy with that to see how much I can work. Lots to figure out. Lots of appointments made. For me a step that was difficult to accept. 34 years old and cant work full time anymore. I know this is not getting better anymore. It are the tiny bits of steps closer to dialyses. Hopefully it stays away for years and my kidney stays stabile now. 
In meantime ofcours I try to think positive. Like that I can be more social again.Finally can read a book again. Meeting up friends, go out to enjoy nature with Boeffie. 
I´m so lucky with Boeffie. I sleep so much more and he doesnt care. He likes sleeping to. When I cant walk him to long he doesnt matter at all. He really feels that I´m not well. As long as we can cuddle and he can play his ball he is fine and happy. 


Ofcours I cant end my blog with some quotes! Maybe something to stand still and think about for a 1 minute....

 

Life, love and laugh!

Love Wendy: Me, Myself and I.

Mister Grey & life

Yes it´s true I read also the book of E.L.James called 50 shades of grey, 50 shades darker and 50 shades freed. That is all over the world in the media. I have seen it a lot in social media and friends and my aunty told me about it and it made me very curious. It´s an erotic triller novel.
Big discussions in the media even at Dr Phill. They exepect a babyboom because of this book but also discussion about its not the right example for the world because the lady gets submissive. Also that its not very good written. Everyone has their own opinion of course.
For me it was a very easy book to read. It gave me lots of entertainment and put my head on something els. I liked how you could read her inner voice. I have that also sometimes how I call it: Devil and angel voice in my head. My intution/angel says no and the devil says yes. The last time I had the same with a man. Very inside yourself you know someting is not right but then when he talks with you, you just forget your inner voice and go for it. Then you fall, get up and go on with life and you learn.  Thats why I liked Anastasia Steele so much. It made me think of me. The struggle with your inner voice. And noooo I don´t mean the storyline or SM hahaha thats nothing for me!
So book 1 is out and I´m reading book 2 its more intresting to be honest then book 1 for me..Christian Grey is a very intresting man and I´m hooked to that book. I´m not a very good reader when I read 2 books a year it´s much so that I now want to read 3 books is a miracle lol.
If you want to read more about it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fifty_Shades_of_Grey

  

Life

Well in mean time I enjoying life very well. Went to a party of monster energy and Japspeed with some nice ladies in Amsterdam. I´m not a party lady but I really liked this one. Was great to see the drifters. Learned never drink at 1am energy drink because at 5 am you are still full energy hahahaha was a hard week because I was so tired. Still happy that I went though.
Went with my niece to step up 4 the premier. I had not seen her for a long time so it was good the see her and catch up. Amazing movie if you like dancing movies. Also Ryan Guzman is a very good looking man, with incredible dance moves and good actor.
Have a new project at work I like, a real challenge.
But struggle also because I still have to leave the department and the company prefer also that I leave the company because I´m not that high educated. Its hard when you like your work, colleagues and scared what the new job brings because it will always affect my health. This company is really easy going. When I´m tired I just go later to the office and can also do stuff in the evening so I dont struggle with deadlines. It´s not easy to find such a flexible company. Ofcourse I stay positive!

In mean time I keep meeting special people all over the world. That give me inspiration, laughs and stuff to think about. You know who you are!

 It´s really true you learn every day and every day has something good. Loving each day!

Happy birthday Boeffie! The joy of my life that makes me smile every day.

6 already time flies.

 

Life, love and laugh!

Love Wendy: Me, Myself and I.

Oberhausen & Quotes

Hello dear readers,

I´m back again with a blog. 

My best friend and I went to Oberhausen Centro 2 weeks ago. We had such a great time.

It´s just 2 hours from our home and totally love it. All the different shops, also lots of cheap shops.

Especially stuff like drugstore it´s much cheaper then here. So I bought for a year stuff. Wrinkle creams (yup over 30 so I need that and to many laugh wrinkles lol), body lotions, shower gels etc. 

We found out Kiko cosmetic store. So many many colors, nailpolish, eye shadow etc. Sadly we dont have that shop here in Holland.

Also not expensive. I bought this nailpolish it was just €4,99 the simpel nail polish is around €2,95.  

I was very surprised how good the quality was it look good on my nails for 6 days, YES!! 

My hair grows so fast since I had to cut it short because it´s to dry because of all the medications.

It feels so much healthier now. Think in the next weeks I´m going to cut again short. It gives me more curls.

Can someone tell me where the summer is??

Really need a long weekend in the sun at the lake in bikini. Missing the sunshine and get a healthy brown skinn. I would love to wear my skirt, dresses and my summer shoes.

Now the quotes again. Hope you like them. Maybe things to think about.

The most are coming from quote facebook pages. 

 Hope you liked this short blog again about well not really important stuff but he it´s my blog so I can write whatever I want haha. Just kidding if you have questions or comments please feel free to comment on the blogs.

Life, love and laugh!

Love Wendy: Me, Myself and I.

Updates and quotes to think about...

Hope my blogg readers are well.
Lately not blogging much. I´m to busy enjoying life.
Life is really good at the moment. Enjoy every minute of it.
Health wise everything also in balance. So I have nothing to complain about :-) 

 Time goes so fast. Its already June and it would be nice to see some more sun.
I´m really a summer person. Loving sun it makes me feel so much better.
Better mood and much more energy.

Last week I went to Glasgow to finally meet up my lovely friend and meeting up some lovely persons. I really had a great time. I cant remeber I laughed so many hours in a day.
My cheeks and belly hurted from laughing. Feel really blessed. I was a bit afraid of the scottisch accent but it went fine when they dont talk to fast, and I´m not to tired and didnt drink alcohol lol.
What a beautiful country it´s so green and so many hills wow. Already booked days off from work to go end September again. Wished some people lived closer to my home, so I can see them more. Really enjoy to spend time with them.
Shane Lynch is going to drift so I cant miss that. It feels for ages ago I have seen him. Really looking forward to it.

 Edinburg

 Next trip Germany Saterday to Oberhausen. Ladies day with my best friend. Shopping and catch up big time.Cant wait!

This are some quotes I like. Maybe someting to think about.....

 

 

Never forget: 

 

Life, love and laugh!

Love Wendy: Me, Myself and I.

Life update and quotes

Hello dear readers,

Again not blogged for a while.

Very busy at the moment with work and social life. Lots of appointsments and catching up with friends. I havent seen some for such a while. During the week its for me difficult to meet up with friends because I havent got all the energy after work. My body proofs it again now. Last couple of weeks I had a busy agenda. Meetings friends, drinkkies (a bit to much OCH), and a bit of party. That also means late in bed and not much sleep. I really loved it to do if I´m healthy but yesterday I was soooo tired again.

I slept and watched a movie thats all I did on the Sunday. Really have to take some steps back now but look back at amazing weeks ha! :-)  

Still work at the same department. Still looking for other job but its hard. The positive thing here is I can do what I want. That means if I deliver good work and end project on time I can work at home or even start a bit later at the office. Very positive for when I´m tired.

Found some nice quotes online I want to share. That did it for me a bit. Also some amazing images I loved.

Loving the ¨very¨ high heels, if I only could walk on them to... hahaha 

Bought some black high heels but they are not THAT high. When I wear the high silver one like below I end up on the floor lol.

Hope you liked the quotes!

Life, love and laugh!

Wendy: Me, Myself and I.

Updates about my life (April 2012)

It´s a long time ago I wrote a blog. I thought lets do a little update.

10th April I had 18 years my kidney. It felt a bit if its was my birthday. At work I had some cake and my colleagues were joking around. Your kidney is allowed to drive a car now, and in USA to drink alcohol etc hahahaha. After work I had some drinkies with my loveones. Was really great laughter. Also drunk some beer because my dad loves that. Its my dad kidney so my kidney is used to beer. To keep it in form I drink sometimes beer. Cant believe 18 years ago my dad and me were at the operation table and he isnt here anymore to celebrate it.
I do think he is watching us, some how.


Then weeks ago I had a date. Well nice guy but at the end not my type of man. Some personality what is important for me was missing. You can call it disaster date lol. I can laugh about it now but back then I was not a happy lady. But I learned my lesson and life goes on! In Holland we say: theire are more men then churches. So here we go my eyes and heart are open again.

At work everything is a bit the same. Still searching for an other job. Its very hard to find something.
They also looking outside this company. Very exciting are this kind of stuff. I really love my colleagues I have now. We can really joke around and have fun. I know you have to work at work but to have fun I find it so important when you are at the office 5 days a week.

BTW I love my hair now. (read my blog weeks ago) I´m totally used to it. Its curly shiny.
I might keep it this way. I think this hair cut was the best cut in my life, not to short.
Real great hairdresser makes the difference!

Also hope the summer comes soon. I miss the sunshine. I need the sun also to get some energy.
Feel again a bit tired lately but well also a bit my fault. I make to many plans I cant resist because they are nice and fun. Ow well you life just ones so do it good! Cheers!!

 My kidney I have from  my dad.

 My life quote

Don't wait for somebody else to save u, to complete u, or to fix u. You are responsible for your life.

Don´t forget: 

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine. ~Anthony J. D'Angelo

Wendy: Me,myself and I.

Dad and Dublin

In 2010 I had to make a big decision for myself for 2011. 

You know a lot what happens in life is in your own hands in my eyes. I mean in sort of way you decide how your future looks like sometimes. I figured out that I would like to go to Dublin and wanted to see Boyzone and more then once. The city looked back then great and beautiful had never been there before. Then Boyzone announced to do a tour in honour of Stephen. In March they performed in Dublin. The date was on 15 March for me a sad day its the day I lost my dad 9 years ago. I know life goes on bla bla but its a day you never forget. When you lost a parent I think you know what I mean. To be away from home on that day, to be overseas felt strange to do that. Then I thought you never forget a day because its the saddest day ever, why dont try to combinated it with what makes you sing, dance, sparkle and give your eye some hot Irish men and makes you feel happy. When I look back in the future (like next year) I think also of something great. I did it booked flight, hotel and concert ticket wooohooo!!!!

I did sometimes struggle that day and yes to hear the song "one more song" hits a bit but over the whole day it was great! I really enjoyed that day. Did a candle in the church, did a red roses at Dalkey. 

That whole day was fine and the evening..........amazing!! I also found out that week my love for Ireland. Ow YES I love it!! I know some people dislike my love for Boyzone. This is just 1 tiny part of what they changed me in a good way. Also it are people that dont know anything about it.´Because my real friends see how it changed me in positive way and they never bothered they know me. Also they are happy to see me happy.  Boyzone changed my future and past.

Now looking back on the saddest day of the year I can also look back on a great happy day in Dublin. Happy and in balance.

I changed my future......

Your always in my heart, miss you every day and love you always.

My dads favo song back then and also was at the funeral.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ntbhx_zZDO8 

 A picture I toke at the O2 in Dublin. Boyzone - Better

Boyzone - One more song in Dublin

A song I listen a lot to back then when he passed away:

Aaliyah - I Miss You 
Puff Daddy/Faith Evans - I'll Be Missing You  

Cheers paps, Heineken beer ofcourse ;-)

"We cannot direct the wind but we can adjust the sails." ~ Dolly Parton

Action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happiness without ACTION.” actions speak louder than words!!

Life, love and laugh,

Wendy: Me, Myself and I .