Changing my life

Dear readers,
Long time not blogged.
Was to busy and way to tired to write a blog.

In mean time lot happend.
Good thing first. Ronan Keating is going to tour. His new album fires is great. A bit pop, also a rap song. Only 3 ballads I love it!  check this out its acoustic version of waisted light. Ronan Keating waisted light recorded in Holland.
I´m very happy that I can go to London and see all my friends from Holland, UK and Germany.
Great catch up laughs, cocktails and enjoying London. Stuff like this makes life a bit easier. Holiday to look forward to. Miss Dublin very much. I really hope I can enjoy it next year, need it to keep myself balance the nature and the kind people.

 Last weeks no well months there was lots of realisation on my health.
I´m simpely to tired. Difficult to explain. Its not only I want sleep all the time but its more lie down. because my body cant move and is to tired but my eyes mind are clearly awake and dont want to sleep. Its what lots of kidney patients have. The tiredness doesnt make life easy. After work you lie down, in the weekend you relax a lot because you need the energy Monday at work again. Most healthy people dont realise how much energy stuff cost like walking, concentration, hang the washes, cleaning the house and do shopping. For me its almost like counthing calories. I know when I make an appointment for the Saterday (after 11 because I need enough sleep) to catch up with friends for lunch that the Sunday is a rest day for me. Means in general that I´m a lot at home. I´m lucky with friends and family that come to my home so I dont have to spend energy to traveling. Also they know my problem so always think about it when we go out.
So last months some stuff had to change. 2 times in month there comes a cleaner, the food for my pets and cats gravel get delivered at home so I dont have to carry anymore and got an electric bike. Sadly we figured out its all not enough I´m struggling. Doctors gave me again extra medication for bloodpressure that makes that I take 11 pills a day. Also blood wasnt good kreat is getting higher means kidney function is getting less. But kidney is works still enough.
Healthcare centre at work figured out I´m struggling a lot and said its better for my health to stop working full time before I breakdown. So we are busy with that to see how much I can work. Lots to figure out. Lots of appointments made. For me a step that was difficult to accept. 34 years old and cant work full time anymore. I know this is not getting better anymore. It are the tiny bits of steps closer to dialyses. Hopefully it stays away for years and my kidney stays stabile now. 
In meantime ofcours I try to think positive. Like that I can be more social again.Finally can read a book again. Meeting up friends, go out to enjoy nature with Boeffie. 
I´m so lucky with Boeffie. I sleep so much more and he doesnt care. He likes sleeping to. When I cant walk him to long he doesnt matter at all. He really feels that I´m not well. As long as we can cuddle and he can play his ball he is fine and happy. 


Ofcours I cant end my blog with some quotes! Maybe something to stand still and think about for a 1 minute....

 

Life, love and laugh!

Love Wendy: Me, Myself and I.