Dad and Dublin

In 2010 I had to make a big decision for myself for 2011. 

You know a lot what happens in life is in your own hands in my eyes. I mean in sort of way you decide how your future looks like sometimes. I figured out that I would like to go to Dublin and wanted to see Boyzone and more then once. The city looked back then great and beautiful had never been there before. Then Boyzone announced to do a tour in honour of Stephen. In March they performed in Dublin. The date was on 15 March for me a sad day its the day I lost my dad 9 years ago. I know life goes on bla bla but its a day you never forget. When you lost a parent I think you know what I mean. To be away from home on that day, to be overseas felt strange to do that. Then I thought you never forget a day because its the saddest day ever, why dont try to combinated it with what makes you sing, dance, sparkle and give your eye some hot Irish men and makes you feel happy. When I look back in the future (like next year) I think also of something great. I did it booked flight, hotel and concert ticket wooohooo!!!!

I did sometimes struggle that day and yes to hear the song "one more song" hits a bit but over the whole day it was great! I really enjoyed that day. Did a candle in the church, did a red roses at Dalkey. 

That whole day was fine and the evening..........amazing!! I also found out that week my love for Ireland. Ow YES I love it!! I know some people dislike my love for Boyzone. This is just 1 tiny part of what they changed me in a good way. Also it are people that dont know anything about it.´Because my real friends see how it changed me in positive way and they never bothered they know me. Also they are happy to see me happy.  Boyzone changed my future and past.

Now looking back on the saddest day of the year I can also look back on a great happy day in Dublin. Happy and in balance.

I changed my future......

Your always in my heart, miss you every day and love you always.

My dads favo song back then and also was at the funeral.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ntbhx_zZDO8 

 A picture I toke at the O2 in Dublin. Boyzone - Better

Boyzone - One more song in Dublin

A song I listen a lot to back then when he passed away:

Aaliyah - I Miss You 
Puff Daddy/Faith Evans - I'll Be Missing You  

Cheers paps, Heineken beer ofcourse ;-)

"We cannot direct the wind but we can adjust the sails." ~ Dolly Parton

Action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happiness without ACTION.” actions speak louder than words!!

Life, love and laugh,

Wendy: Me, Myself and I .

My tattoo´s

Yep I have tattoo´s and I want more lol.

As a kid one of my friends mum gave me gold Egypt ankh for at the gold chain during my dialyses. 

The meaning long life. Since then I wanted a tatttoo of it. Ofcourse lots of doubt because the people around me dont like tattoo´s especially not my parents. 

After 17 years I deciced to do it in Amsterdam with my sweet aunty. I was so not happy what a pain and my aunt kept laughing. The heart above the ankh is special with a  G from my dads name Giacomo. Special because my dad gave me a longer life with giving me his kidney. Then year later I find it a bit bored and seen Michele his tattoos and loved the shadows. Thats what I wanted with words, my life quotes. Life, love and laughs, thats important for me. My red line in my life. So in Dublin last year with my friend we went to Michele and he did amazing work 

Last 2 years I love the song of Ronan Keating - lovin each day. A song that always cheers me up, sing and dance. Great memories also of his moves during the tour. Some friends and fans will know exactly what I mean ;-) I thought thats it, when I´m down I keep thinking: Loving each day!

 Then after weeks of searching for a good tattoo artist in Amsterdam I found one T-Lou. Amazing artwork but she travels through the whole world. She was there in 2 weeks. I mailed with FB and she was fully booked. Had to wait for 6 months. Then I went to the tattoo studio just to see the other tattoo artists theire work and bump to T-Lou. She knew who I was because we mailed with facebook. Guess what......???? 

At that moment someone had cancelled before I knew she designed my tattoo and we did it. I wanted: loving each day, but with music notes and you not could see directy what I wrote on my arm also a red star for Steo.

I can tell you every time I see it it gives me special feelings. At the hospital everytime I have a kidney check up giving blood I see the tattoo. It gives an incredible amazing proud feeling and it feels good and reminds me: love each day! Because you dont know whats around the corner!

Then this year in February when I was in Dublin I did the colors at my leg tattoo also by Michele ofcourse. Now I think its more feminine and really me. It suits me, who I´am! 

 Next I think a shamrock, so there is always a part of Ireland with me with all the great memories.Many people warned maybe regret it later when you are old. 100% I never will. Every tattoo has an amazing memory. Also when you have what you exactly wanted you are satisfied.

 Tattooing is about personalizing the body, making it a true home and fit temple for the spirit that dwells inside it.... Tattooing therefore, is a way of keeping the spiritual and material needs of my body in balance.  ~Michelle Delio

Your necklace may break, the fau tree may burst, but my tattooing is indestructible.  It is an everlasting gem that you will take into your grave.

A genuine tattoo.... tells a story.  I like stories and tattoos, no matter how well done, and if they don't tell a story that involves you emotionally, then they're just there for decoration, then they're not a valid tattoo.  There has to be some emotional appeal or they're not, to my way of thinking, a real tattoo.  It tells people what you are and what you believe in, so there's no mistakes.  ~Leo, tattooist, 1993, quoted in Margo DeMello, Bodies of Inscription, 2000

The world is divided into two kinds of people:  those who have tattoos, and those who are afraid of people with tattoos. LOL

Life, Love and Laugh.

Wendy: Me, Myself and I. 

 

All good

What a week! In a  good way though!

Very busy at work searching for an other job. We are keeping searching for solutions so I can leave this department. My manager has no problem that I stay till then. I learn a lot thanks to the intern we now have for a couple of months. Really gonna miss my colleague though. We have so much fun. They are very caring.

My friend and me made soto soup, its indonesian soup. I always loved that soup and I wanted to learn that to. Well it was delicious but what a work. 1,5 hour in the kitchen together. Next day I eat it with my mum she liked it to. I´m not going to make it when I´m alone lol. I will just make it with my friend. Also had a great time with her catching up but for a workday to much wine haha bit of a pain in my head next day.

Hospital check up went also well. Kidney is doing good. Already knew that because I feel very well. Have to be carefull with my energy but I´m used to that.

Today I had a great lunch with my best friend. Also some wine again. Its long time ago I had so many wine in one week. Was great to see her and to catch up. Great laughs, talks and yummy food.
25 years of friendship I can tell her everything, all my sillyness, talk about men (most of the time complaining though, they really come from mars and me from venus lol) , tell her my mistakes and she will never judge me and not less love me for that and I not her ofcourse. We have a great friendship sometimes we speak 3 times a week and sometimes a month not but we are always there for each other and helping each other. She helped me through the most terrible times of my life. We are never worried about our friendship because everything is just ok because we know each other that well. I was witness at her beautiful marriage. Also she made my life ritcher with 2 kids a son and daughter. They are adorble, they always make me smile and they fill my heart with love and warmth. I think this is all whats about in a friendship.

In the mean time I´m very happy with my curly wild hair. Got some advise for mouse and bought it and my hair looks so much better. Now I´m happy I listend to the hairdresser. Feel confident again and the sparkle happy me is back again. Wooohoooooo

Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends!

"A Friend is someone who knows all about you and loves you anyway!!!" 

I wish everyone a great start of the new week!

Life, love and laugh.

Wendy: Me, Myself and I.

Soto soup 

My hair

I love my long hair, made me also feel more women or something.

I think its 15 years ago that I had it so song.

Last couple of months my hair gets in bad state and it gets wors and wors.

Dry and lose lots of hair, its getting more thin. Also some places is so thin it almost bald. I do my separation of my hair more and more at the left. Sometimes did some eyebrow brown on my the tinn spots, so people did not see it.

Yesterday at the hairdresser she gave advise cut it off.  I just wanted to burst in tears when she said it. She said give your headskinn bit of a rest and start with new healthy hair. Well I thought its not the first time I had shorter hair and I liked it back then, lets do it. When she was finished I hate it. Dislike, awfull. Home cried my eyes out. I thought this is just not my day tomorrow when you wake up its better. In mean time for the first time I did hate the mirror and didnt watch, did a tail and try not to feel my hair. This morning I wake up walked to the toilet and seen my hair again cried my eyes out still hate it. Felt so awfull, ugly, just didnt felt me, I want me back. It´s now till my shoulders.

Next solution was shower do my hair my way. After that I felt better it looks better. 

Also friends made me feel better. Looks like it takes time to get used it. Also someone ask me: what has happened to the lady that inspires me to be positive and gratefull for what I have? Well ehhh yes I lost that positive mind a bit. Also that I should watch the mirror and be thankfull I have not had cancer treatment and it is not falling out. Well she just gave me the kick under my bud I needed, YES she did. Guess what????

I´m back, fuck the hair my health is more important. The meds effect my hair but the rest of my body healthy. Back to postive me again.

Still not sure if I like te style but gonna watch and see how it goes whole week.

There is a positive thing to with short hair, I get easy curls. Now I have it straight but also can make it curly.

Next week will see how it looks like with curls.

Thanks ladies for your nice words, cheer up, understanding and the bad joke someone told me to make me laugh. Feel much better.  Now gonna enjoy my Sunday.

"We cannot direct the wind but we can adjust the sails." 

~ Dolly Parton

Life, love and laugh.

Wendy:Me, Myself and I

Whitney Houston & chicken soup of the soul.

Wow I just seen 1003 people have read my blog. That´s just amazing.

So surprised with that. I started it without expectations. Thanks for the read, all of you!!

So Whitney Houston passed away in the meantime. I have seen the bodyguard I think 2 weeks ago.

What a great movie and what amazing lady. Incredible voice but we can still enjoy her music. Music never dies!!  I wanted to post a song but cant make up  my mind wich one. There are so many good songs of her.

I will always love you, It´s not right but its ok, one moment in time, I´m every women etc. To many choices.

I´m reading the book chickensoup for the soul at the moment. I started to read it because someone special  read it and thought in Dublin let´s buy it. That is really a book I can recommend. So many nice short stories. During the read I´m so impressed, and said lots of: oooh, wow, jeez and a had a tear. Very moving, inspirational and let you really think more about life and cherish it and open your heart a bit. This is there website: http://www.chickensoup.com/

This is a quote from the book I liked. Picture is from Dalkey Island.

This is one of the stories a screenshot from the book.

 

Life, laugh and love.

Wendy: Me,Myself and I.

End conclusion Dublin trip

I enjoyed Dublin very much. Just me, myself and I time. I was a bit scared to travel alone but it was better then I thought. I met very kind people on the road and didnt feel onsafe at all. It looks like i'm going to do it again. I feel kinda more free now since I did that. I think I can do anything. Feel so much stronger in my mind but also health wise. I feel very alive! Feel also more independed. Difficult to explain feel also so much more happy. 

It was a big challenge but I did it! Woooohooooooooo. 

Also I don´t trust strangers,I just don´t! To much happend in the past. Trusted the wrong people.

Now I walked in Howth with a stranger. I mean the mountains can happen everything you are alone there. Really devil angel talk in my head at that moment. I followed my intuition and I just did it. He was a real gentleman nice guy had a good laughs. Ended very well nothing bad happend. It was good to trust my instinct again that is going to be allright. I have to do that more. Feel very happy at the moment. Never thought 10 years ago that I could do this.

Now the new challenge is find a new job in the company I work. It´s going to be hard, very hard. They are not postive about that they have something for me because I'm not a sales or specialist. But heee I did travel alone I can do this to!! and when not then something els will come on my road I think, or hope....

Never be afraid to do something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark; professionals built the titanic.

Ofcourse I had to end my Dublin trip with temple bar picture ;-)

 My friend has a tattoo from it and I love it! This blog ends with the quote:

What doesnt kill you, make you stronger!!!

Next travel.........hitting Big Ben, Yes London baby! :-)

Life, love and laugh

Wendy: Me, Myself and I.

Dalkey Island

Today it´s Tuesday my first workday. I was so excausted Sunday and Monday. Feel a bit better today.

Was nice to catch up with some friends the last couple of days. Miss Dublin very much. Will safe some money again to go again.

Dalkey Island is so beautiful went with a friend that lives near Bray. It was a bit cloudy at the time I was there but still the view is just amazing. I do understand why people love it so much. Maybe you have to been there to see what we see. It´s just stunning. It just makes you stop think and just look around and enjoy the view.  Get to see it from all sort of sides this time. I hope some day I can go there in summer to see the island.

 Dalkey Island

 

 The water is so clear.

 The Irish flag on the island is new, last year it wasnt there.

Dalkey from the other side.

Nobody ever takes a picture of something they need to forget. So take pictures because those things make memories last forever.

Life, love and laugh.

Wendy: Me, Myself and I.